Feeling Tender and Vunerable-by Carmen Torbus

You know how sometimes you are such good friends with someone, you can finish each others sentences? Each other’s thoughts?

I am blessed with that sort of Rock Star friend.

She is so in tune with me, that she recently called me from Colorado one day (while she was on vacation no less!) because she had just read a moving article. It had spoken to her, and she knew it would speak to me.

Because it was me.

So that’s how I came across this fabby post from artist and blogger Carmen Torbus
This is for any Mom, Momprenuer, frustrated artist, or stifled employee.

This is for all of us that sometimes feel like we are trout swimmin upstream.

Like we are all alone in the Big Pond of Life.


Sometimes I sit and dream.

I think of all the things I’d like to do.

I put off the stuff that needs to be done,

trading that time for day dreams.

Thinking of conversations I’d like to have,

with old friends,

current friends and

with friends I’ve not yet made.

Wondering where the other people like me are.

How do I find them?

How do I connect?

I long to sit and laugh,

sip coffee, or hot cocoa, or tea,

while making a mess with art supplies,

or just chatting about nothing in particular,

or the meaning of life itself.

Deep conversations,

light conversations,

no conversation,

just being.

I don’t want to just be a dreamer,

I want to be a doer.

I want to paint.

I want to write.

I want to take pictures.

I want to talk.

I want to listen.

I want to have a tribe of my own,

and be a part of the tribe of others.

I want to be a part of something bigger.

Something good.

Something powerful.

Make a contribution to the world.

Sometimes I think it’s me that gets in my way.

Is it fear that stops me?

Lack of belief?

Lack of motivation or energy?

Lack of work?

I sit back and watch others do what I know in my heart I can do too.

Sometimes envious, or jealous, wondering what the secret is.

Wishing I could know what they know,

I cheer them on.

Pat them on the back.



Sit in awe of.

Recognizing their potential,

their strength,

their capabilities,

their talent,

their accomplishments.

What is the missing piece?

How do I reach my full potential,

my strength,

my capabilities,

my talent,

so that I can realize and accomplish my dreams,

and contribute.

I suppose I’m not alone in my desires,

my dreams,

my paralysis.

I suppose the only way to find out is to “do” while continuing to dream.

I suppose I don’t have to know how, I just have to start.

Carmen Torbus Blog
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16 thoughts on “Feeling Tender and Vunerable-by Carmen Torbus

  1. When I wrote this, it was very personal. In fact, I almost didn’t post it, but I’m so glad I did. So many people have shared how they can relate. It’s such a good feeling to know that I’m not alone.




  2. This was just beautiful!!! I can relate to it in every way, as I know all of us can. But, I’ve actually really been pondering this lately and have been working on formulating my thoughts into a blog post.
    Thanks for the inspiration!
    just became you a follower.

  3. Hi, found you through SITS.

    Yes, I did love this. And it speaks to me, aslo.

    You have a great friend, and so does she–since you both recognize that in each other.

    Nice to meet you!

  4. As I am making my dream a reality, I’m finding out the way to success is baby steps – one foot in front of the other – and then throw in some faith and some heavy prayer. I love this article. Thanks for sharing.

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